Day 233

Saw A tonight and I told her I was considering extending my chastity time to 365 days.  She told me I should do it.  So I am.  This means my next full and proper orgasm will (hopefully) occur on February 8, 2013.  A full year.

In an odd sort of way, I don't really miss it.  While I don't get any satisfaction when I ruin an orgasm, my body seems to be getting used to them.  As I explained to A tonight, when I first started to ruin, it was very difficult to stop.  Now, it just seems perfectly natural and I do it without thinking.

Anyway, I'm sticking to my rules of ruining every two weeks on a Monday.  If I miss one, it'll be another two weeks.  And so on.

Day 231

I don't exactly have a small penis but I love the idea of SPH and have been trying to get my neighbour to see mine flaccid for ages.  It's odd because I don't actually like her and I don't think she likes me that much.  That just adds to the humiliation.

She has seen me in cycle shorts before when I've tucked myself between my legs and I know she sneaked a peek but today I managed to show her the lot.

I'd taken a parcel in for her this morning so I knew either her or one of her kids would come knocking. I know what time she normally gets home so I decided to have a shower just before then. As if on cue, as I stepped from the shower, there was a knock at the door. I grabbed a towel and quickly put it round my waist.

When I answered the door she was all apologetic about getting me out of the shower but I just smiled and brushed it aside. Then she said she'd called for the parcel. I had put it on a table by the door so I reached out and picked it up to hand it to her. Unfortunately (yeah, right) the towel suddenly fell from my waist.

I couldn't drop the parcel so the towel stayed at my feet. I was apologising all over the place. She was laughing and looking at my tiny, flaccid cock, saying it was fine. Eventually she took the parcel and I managed to grab the towel, covering myself up.

She winked at me, thanked me and left, a big grin on her face.

I'm due a ruined orgasm later tonight and I know what I'll be thinking about to get me in the mood.

Day 218

Last night I had my first ruined orgasm for ages.  I sat at my computer and read and watched porn, rubbing myself at the same time.  I made it last quite a while before it started dribbling out of me.  There was a lot!  I didn't feel a whole lot better afterwards, just a bit sticky.  That's it for a fortnight.

Day 215

For the first time since getting sick, I'm starting to feel horny again.  After my last post, A suggested I try for 300 days.  This will mean I won't get a full and proper orgasm under 3 December.  I'm seriously thinking I could just keep going forever.  Or until the next time I see A.  Whichever is sooner.

I'm going to have a ruined orgasm tomorrow as, I think, I'm due one.

Day 203

I have been very sick and, subsequently, completely missed the magic 200 days!  Not that I felt like celebrating anything.  A is off to Amsterdam for a bit of dirty stuff tomorrow.  My flagging sexual urges are starting to pick up a bit as I imagine what she'll be getting up to...or who is getting up her...

Day 195

Today I have set myself a challenge.  I am going to try and milk every last drop out of myself over the day.  I have decided to ruin an orgasm every hour and record the results here.

This is the result at 10:30am

I realise I should have included something for scale!  I will do that at 11:30.

The amount at 11:30am wasn't much different; perhaps a little less.

12:30 is really starting to scrape the barrel!  I don't think there's a lot left.

I missed two hours (I had to go out for a bit) so this, pathetic result is from 3:30pm.

And that was it.  At 4:30, nothing came out.  I must be empty.

Day 194

Today I received a fantastic email from A, describing her adventures in London yesterday.  She had a brilliant time.  I really wished I'd been with her.  Still, my vicarious enjoyment is almost as good.

I've been thinking about what I'm going to do in six days time.  I'm not sure I want to end this.

I have just checked back and I haven't had a full and proper orgasm since February 8.  I'm starting to think that the longer you leave it, the less important it becomes and the stronger the desire to preserve it.