Day 47

Today was very difficult.  I'm not sure why but I have felt turned on all day.  I ruined an orgasm tonight just to milk myself.  The feelings remain.

Day 35

I have been writing my cuckold memoirs.  I'm presently working on a few humiliating things that happened to me during my cuckold experience.  At the time, I didn't enjoy it much but., for some reason, it is turning me on now.  It seems I've changed a lot as far as humiliation is concerned.

When people started to find out things about me, my underlying submissiveness would surface and I'd just take it.  These days I try and encourage it.  I'm not sure why I enjoy humiliation or why I like sharing it with people but I do now.  So much so that I felt like having an orgasm tonight.  Typing my life has had me very hard tonight.

Rather than break my chastity at a mere 35 days, I decided to ruin one instead, hoping it might let me write some more.

Day 27 [2]

Yesterday I was in Hereford at a bit of a loose end so I popped into a pub to waste some time over a beer (or two).  I was the only customer and was sitting comfortably by the open fire.  I half noticed someone else enter the pub and order a drink.  Next thing I know he's asking if I'd mind him joining me at the fire.  Of course I didn't, I said, and he joined me.

We started chatting about the usual kind of things (sport, where I come from, weather, etc) and were getting on quite well.  He asked if I was from Hereford and, when I said no, he said he thought so because he'd not seen my in the pub before.  He was quite the regular.

He said he spent quite a lot of time at the pub because of his wife.  I asked him why that was.  He went a bit quiet, a shy grin on his face.  Then, in hushed tones, he told me that she would tease him most mornings before leaving for work.  I asked him what he meant.  He was embarrassed but, nevertheless told me she would sometimes start giving him a hand job and then just stop as he was reaching a climax.

Naturally I commiserated with him.  I also asked him if him if he finished himself off, just to show her he could manage without her.  He laughed at this but shook his head.  He told me he preferred someone else doing it.  I agreed that that was always better.  We both laughed.

I then took a gamble.  He seemed like a nice enough guy.  I asked him if he was still feeling horny.  He admitted that, yes, he was, rubbing the front of his jeans as he did.  I looked around at the empty bar and said I'd finish the job if he liked.  He grinned and stood up, leading the way to the toilets.

Once inside, we stood at the urinal, as normal as could be.  We both took our cocks out (mine was in case someone suddenly walked in) and I reached across and took his in my hand.  He was hard and hot.  I then proceeded to wank him off.  It didn't take very long before the unmistakable splats of come hitting metal were heard.  He groaned as I squeezed the last bits out of him.  I left him to finish, washed my hands and left the toilet.

When he returned to our seats by the fire, he was carrying a pint.  He put the glass down in front of me, thanked me and left the pub.

I do like the unexpected ones.

Day 21

Nothing much to report for the last 7 days but today I have been very horny.  So I ruined an orgasm.  It feels good that I've milked away the surplus but the frustration remains.

Also, yesterday I had an email from a 32 year old who wants his cock sucked.  He says he's straight but wants to try it with an 'older, more mature man'.   He sounds genuine enough and ended his email by saying his cock is 5".  This, while being honest, is not my preferred size!  I'm really not sure whether I should respond.

Day 14

I haven't posted for just over a week because nothing much has happened.  Tonight, however, the urge to masturbate was pretty strong.  Rather than ruin my chaste state, I decided to ruin an orgasm instead.  This time, I reached a new level by doing it twice in an hour.  It felt like quite an achievement although not a bit satisfying.

Day 5

It's taken five days for me to get notably horny again.  I've written about how my chastity cycle (11 days) affects me but never really noted how long it takes for me to climb back up after a period of abstinence.

I forgot to mention a couple of weeks ago that A saw me in a skirt, panties and hold up stockings.  I'm pretty sure she's the first person (apart from fancy dress parties) to witness me dressing fem.  I was surprisingly  nervous.  It was also very nice to able to share this kink with someone.

Day 53

I just couldn't stand it any more!  A told me about how many orgasms she was having and I just went mad and had one myself.  I must say that after the two ruined ones, this one felt very good!  Pity no one was there.

So, tomorrow I start again.