Day 87

The highlight of my day was being hit in the balls.   

I was standing in Starbucks, admiring the rather wonderful cleavage of a woman in a see through white skirt.  She was with a guy who, quite frankly, was a bit pathetic.  His shoulders were rounded, he hunched over and his pot belly was pretty gross.  He was a bit of a high talker and, at first, I thought he was gay but the way he manhandled her indicated they were quite clearly a couple.

She, on the other hand, was extremely sexy.  Her low cut top showed off her gorgeous breasts beautifully.  She had a very sexy mouth and her skirt showed off her white pants perfectly.  I couldn't help but stare.

They were waiting for their coffees and I was standing quite close, waiting for mine.  She was talking to him about something that had caused her to get quite animated.  Suddenly one of her hands sprung to life, lifting up from her side and struck me in the balls.

I doubled over, grabbing myself (as you do) and she suddenly started apologising.  My cock had started swelling so it was rather a good thing I had it covered.  She was half smiling as she tried to comfort me.

It was one of those weird situations where she wanted to touch me, giving solace, but, given the location of the injury, couldn't.  It was a bit embarrassing but I managed to assure her it was my fault for standing too close.  Then their coffees arrived and they left.

Sitting down, my balls still throbbing, my erection almost complete, I wondered why this had turned me on.  I figured it was because I have been so long without an orgasm.  I do rather like mild ball torture but it doesn't generally give me an erection; rather, I feel excited inside.  Another reason could be the completely unexpected nature of it.  Effectively, a woman I quite fancied had touched my balls.  Clearly I enjoyed this a lot.

Day 85

I'm not sure when I'll be getting a release as time is running out and I'm not certain when I'll get to see A next!  Today I couldn't wear the cage so have tried not to think about it.  Each time I do, I start getting an erection.  Damned annoying.

Found this at the V&A today.  Wondered whether A would let me photograph her like this.

Day 84

I had to spend a day without the cage yesterday but, as I was drinking and going to a football game, I figured it would be fine.  It was.

The only interesting thing all day was a guy sitting on the Tube in work shorts, boots and t-shirt.  He was clearly coming home from work - I think he was a plasterer, judging from the dust on him.  He was sitting, legs apart, reading the paper.  He was also directly opposite me.

Poking out of one leg of his shorts were his balls.  I'm pretty sure he was unaware of showing himself off.  They weren't particularly massive but then, he was sitting down and they weren't dangling.  It was quite difficult to judge the real size.

I watched his balls, fascinated.  I was aware of a girl sitting next to me who had also spotted them.  She had a smirk on her face.  That made me quite jealous.  I wanted to show her my balls and say "Here, smirk at these as well!"

I didn't get to bed until very late and was lying in bed half dreaming in that moment just before sleep.  I had been thinking about A in a dress and this led to the following fantasy:

We were in a pub, in a secluded little snug, sitting together.  As we sat and talked, I lightly placed my right hand on her knee, slipping it softly beneath her dress.  I gently stroke her leg, trailing my fingers up and down.  Her legs slowly parted, allowing me higher access.  My fingers continued climbing, touching, lightly scratching until I felt a heat between her legs.  I moved from her skin to the cotton of her pants, rubbing up and down, feeling her wetness.

A grabbed my hand without removing it, trying to stop me.  I leant close and asked her if she was enjoying it.  She nodded.  I assured her that no-one could see us and she should just take the pleasure.  She released my hand and I moved on to her clitoris, rubbing, rolling, pinching.

I rather enjoyed that.

Day 82

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Day 81

I can certainly vouch for the fact that I have a cycle.  Today there was nothing.  The frustration from yesterday was merely a wall I had to get over.  I'm guessing the period is every 10-11 days, although this could be skewed by my long abstinence.

That's not to say I wasn't aware of my chastity all day - I keep thinking about having my balls bashed, for instance, inexplicably thinking this would be exciting - but I wasn't anywhere near as bad as yesterday.

I have been reading about spoiled orgasms, something that by essence would not be very satisfying.  It's sort of like milking except it involves masturbation (or penetrative sex) to the point of ejaculation.  As the feeling of orgasm is reached, all manipulation of the penis stops and it is left to dribble out the ejaculate.  DEFINITELY not satisfying.

Men speak of this in hushed tones because it keeps the frustration while emptying the balls.  As an end to chastity it is very mechanical and takes away any pleasure from the act, the idea being that immediately after the spoiled orgasm, the man is once more locked up.  It is really a female domination technique rather than mere chastity.

I have to admit that this does not fill me with excitement.  When the time is up, I just want to feel the whole thing and hope it is very intense - the second one rather than the first.  Mind you, on days like today, I think anything A decides would be fine.  Days like yesterday, however, are a very different proposition.

Day 80

This has been the worst day so far.  I really wanted to have the cage on to stop any contact.  I have had to totally avoid any porn and keep my thoughts on other things.

I feel like I'm on the edge of ejaculation.  I only need a little push (pull, squeeze, grip) and it would come gushing out of me.

Last night my dreams were all over the place - snippets of various fantasies - and I woke with a throbbing erection.

If men do have orgasm cycles then this is the peak of one of mine!  I feel like I could come for hours.  Obviously I am aware that I would come within a minute and it would be over in seconds.

Day 79

I seriously wanted to masturbate today.  It's getting close.  I can feel it.  Feeling it just makes it worse.  I need to leave it alone when the cage is having a few days off.