Day 189

I've been having a few sex dreams over the last few nights.  They mostly concern me being humiliated.  This afternoon, for instance, I had a two hour nap (I had a very late night followed by a very early morning) and quite a vivid dream.

I had a very small penis which was always hard.  My wife (I have no idea who she was but, in my dream, she was my wife - I'll call her Mary) was a dom and treated me badly, which just turned me on.

I've recently been thinking about being spat on or having a woman dribble spit into my mouth (I watched a porn video which had this in it and it's stuck in my mind) and, of course, Mary did a lot of this.

In the dream she was being fucked by a guy with a normal sized penis and they would keep saying how pathetic my little erection was.  Occasionally Mary would kick my balls.

As the guy was about to come, Mary forced me to suck his cock as she squeezed my balls.  I found the pain excruciating but, in the dream, it turned me on.  I was very aware of my tiny cock.

I woke up when the guy came and I had a good, solid erection.

Two things I'm not sure about.  Why am I enjoying these humiliation fantasies so much and why am I so horny?  Okay, it's been 189 days since I had a complete orgasm but my horny days usually only last a day or two every 11 days.  I've felt randy for the last four days.

I found this photo earlier and think it's a perfect match for my cock in the dream.

I really wish A would take me shopping for women's lingerie so I can feel really humiliated.  I might hate it but really want to know.