It looks like I’ll not have a chance of
release until October 6 (and that’s by no means definite). My sense of frustration comes and goes. I find that when I’m not thinking about sex,
I can easily ride the occasional waves of my chastity but when sex enters the
equation, I feel an almost constant desire to orgasm. It is at its worst in the mornings when I’m
not wearing the cage.
This morning, for instance, I was in the
middle of an erotic dream when my alarm woke me up and my erection was straining
for release. When I think about the
dream it wasn’t even that erotic but clearly anything, however mild, sets me
off at the moment.
If I really think about the feelings I have
at the moment, the closest I could describe them would be that I am at the
moment before sexual release. What people
call the ‘edge’, where one more step would see me plummeting to an all
consuming orgasm. I am standing at the
edge, looking over at a place I have visited many times but it is just beyond
my reach.
When I wake up with such a pervasive
erection, I have to be very careful how much I squeeze it. It wouldn’t take a lot for it to take that
step and spoil everything. I’m pretty
sure, if this accidentally happened, that I’d ruin the orgasm. While this is undesirable (metaphorically) at
least it would give me something to write in this blog. [I do requests!]
I’ll just finish this entry by describing
the dream from this morning.
I was out with A and we had the marble draw
which I managed to ‘win’ with two white marbles. On the way home, A decided we’d stop in a lay-by
for my release. We parked up and left
the car. A, being generous, had
unbuttoned her blouse and was letting me suck her nipples. I then took the cage off and was about to
start when another car pulled up and two guys came over to us. A was wearing a skirt and, I discovered, no
pants. The two guys, ignoring me, complimented
her and started mauling her still uncovered breasts. From this point, the dream was all about A
and the two men – I was forgotten.
There was a lot of touching, undressing and
cocks being released. I woke up as one
of the guys entered A from behind.
Like the fantasy a LOT.
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